Because I Am Way Too Shy To Express My Feelings

I saw him walking towards me with a broad smile. 

His eyes shining bright, met mine. 

“Hey! You look so fresh,” I somehow managed to compliment him. 

He smiled, winked, and went pass off me. 

Damn! I could have hugged him.

But I was very shy.

I saw him playing basketball. 

His t-shirt flaunted his perfectly trimmed biceps.

Every time he made it to the basket, he did a flip and my heart skipped a beat.

“You played so well,” I told him while we walked back to home.

“Thanks. I am happy that you came.” He gave that same smile again.

I could have told him how I went crazy seeing him play so well.

But I was too shy.

One year later, I was at the station waiting to board the train.

It is then I spotted him walking his way through the crowd.

“I’ll miss you. Please take care of yourself and come soon”, saying this he gave me a notebook.

“I will.” I spoke with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat.

I could have hugged him at least. 

But I was shy.

After 4 years, I finally met him.

I loved his captivating smile and masculine odor.

“It is good to see you after so many years,” saying so, he tucked a strand of hair behind my ear.

“I missed you,” saying this I hugged him.

He reciprocated and held me.

But I was still shy.

Seeing him dressed perfectly in that black suit,

I was dumbstruck of his charm.

“You look heart-throbbing.”

“Thanks! I have dressed up for my love interest.”

“She will definitely compliment you.” I spoke jealously and with a lump in my throat. 

He rubbed my cheek and I could’ve expressed my love for him.

But I was way too shy.

Weeks later, I stood beside his corpse during his funeral

Cursing my destiny and crying over the loss.

He looked so calm. He seemed to be in a sound sleep.

I bend over him and spoke into his ears for one last time.

“I will miss you. To love you is life and I will wish for one more.”

This time I was no more shy.

Months later, for the first time, I opened the notebook that he once gave to me.

I found a hidden note in its back cover.

He had written,

“Everyday, I look at her long locks and her doe-shaped eyes. I wish those were mine. 

I hope she reads this and expresses her love to me the day she comes back.

Because I am way too shy to express my feelings for her.”

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